Looking over my past work reminds me of how much I love creating and have greatly missed being able to work the way I’d like. I’m getting closer to having more space, which will be nice and I hope to have a permanent solution within the next year that will give me both a lot of space and less chaos in my house.
Getting back to my work feels different this time. I’ve had a lot of time to consider where I am headed, but I don’t know that I arrived at an answer. I know where I see myself, but it just doesn’t feel as real as I would like. Maybe I’m just letting fear do my speaking for me. There certainly isn’t any reason why I cannot achieve those things I dream about. And there is certainly no reason my art couldn’t propel me into where I want to be. When I am open to it, I love my art.
On that note, it is amazing how much my art reflects what is going on in my life. Over last summer, when life seemed really relaxed, I was able to create very easily and had a lot of fun. Over the past couple of months, on the other hand, my drawings seem off and I haven’t picked up a paint brush since December. I don’t feel inspired. I feel claustrophobic, stuck, pushed down. And that is easily explained. I started feeling odd December 15, which developed quickly into the flu, which lasted for a couple of weeks and then turned into pneumonia. I’ve technically been well for a month now, but I’m still coughing things up, and I have yet to feel as energetic as I did early in December. It’s so hard to stay positive through that. Meanwhile, I’m trying to coordinate new flooring in my house. The boxes of flooring are waiting on my porch and I have to move as much as possible from the house into the shed.
I don’t mean to complain. I don’t like complaining. My point is that I’ve just been in such a non-creative headspace. I am looking forward to a year full of art, life, and family. I want it to be a productive and successful year. I’m looking at 2016 as the year that prepares my life to make sense. 2017 is looking like a year when I can just relax. I’ve been in a state of flux and upheaval for 3 years now. Settling down is going to be amazing.
I’m interested in so many things that I hope to add to my website. I’m looking into hand painting plates and glasses, various types of collage, painting canvases, having cards printed, and making ornaments for Christmas. I’m also super-obsessed with all things fairy garden, but I’m terrible with plants. I’m brainstorming a way to use the concept of the fairy garden/house to make something more “Brian” in nature. A few years ago, I made these caged fairy animals as gifts. That was fairy similar, but I think I can take this idea a little further. There is just so much to think about and so much to do. I hope you enjoy this blog. Feel free to message me with things you’d like me to write about or any suggestions on art to try.